In the 93 Section of the Doctrine and Covenants in several different verses many of the early church leaders were chastised and told of their condemnation before the Lord because of the fact that they had not taught their children light and truth. Here are some examples:
41 But verily I say unto you, my servant Frederick G. Williams, you have continued under this condemnation;
43 And now a commandment I give unto you—if you will be delivered you shall set in aorder your own house, for there are many things that are not right in your house.
And in Verse 50:
50 My servant Newel K. Whitney also, a bishop of my church, hath need to be achastened, and set in border his family, and see that they are more cdiligent and concerned at home, and pray always, or they shall be removed out of their dplace.
It seems that for them and for any believer that does not take responsibility to teach their children the Light and Truth of God and set their family in order and be diligent and pray always, they could be removed and condemned and afflicted. It seems that it is of upmost importance to teach children about God.
I have a profound and powerful testimony of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I know the Jesus Christ lives and dwells in Heaven. This is not just a hope, not just faith. I have felt the Holy Spirit testify the Truth of that to me so many, many times. Far too many to think that I could conjure the feelings of it up by myself.
I often wonder why it is that I have such a powerful testimony of Jesus and His gospel and my children do not. Didn’t they go to the same church as I did? Didn’t they all graduate from a 4 year seminary program where they were taught all about the gospel? Didn’t they go to church all the while they grew up in my house? How did they go through that and yet now not one of them desire to go to church or to serve in any capacity in this church or any other. Have I failed? I think so, and miserably. Why am I different? I think it may be because I have sought to know God diligently and I have sinned so many times and sought to have His forgiveness and through that I have found His Love and His Light and His Truth. But…
I feel like I am under condemnation from the fact that I did not teach them better. I feel like I am afflicted because of this. I feel like that wicked one has had power over me because of this. It is my children that told me to lighten up and start drinking alcohol, then I drank Coffee, then I drank Tea, then I smoked a little, then I stopped going to church, then I doubted what I have formerly believed even after having served a two year mission to teach other people about the gospel of Jesus Christ. I do not blame my children for leading me astray, I blame myself for not teaching them before that with more zeal. I came back to the Light and Truth. I am very grateful to God for forgiveness. But…
Doesn’t someone have to want to know the truth for themselves? Even God does not force any man or woman into Heaven. So if I would have tried harder wouldn’t it have seemed like I was brain washing them and forcing them to be a part of what I believed to be true?
My eldest son has even told me that he felt like he was forced to go to church all his years growing up in my house. So if I had pushed harder do you think it would have been any better? Maybe I was too much of a hypocrite at the time and so my kids knew something was off because I was saying believe this thing and live this way, but I am believing it but not really living it. I should have been more of a doer of the word, instead of just a believer of the word.
So what do I do now that I have come back into Light and Truth and now I need to make sure my children know what I believe and that I want to live in this Truth now and bask in the Light of the True and Living God even Jesus Christ, the Creator of All things, the Redeemer and Savior of all mankind. I don’t even know where to begin except that I can pray always for all things and for them and attempt to teach them while I can but most importantly live the Gospel and let that be the teacher, let my example be the teacher that I never was before.
I know that they may never come into the Light and Truth, but I must at least testify of it and teach them of it so that there sins will not be poured onto my head as we see in Jacob 1:19:
19 And we did amagnify our office unto the Lord, taking upon us the bresponsibility, answering the sins of the people upon our own heads if we did not cteach them the word of God with all diligence; wherefore, by laboring with our might their dblood might not come upon our garments; otherwise their blood would come upon our garments, and we would not be found spotless at the last day.
May God help me bring them back into Light and Truth is my hope and prayer.